The Innocent Wika

“Doubt … is an illness that comes from knowledge and leads to madness”.
― Gustave Flaubert, Memoirs of a Madman

For many times, I’ve heard about unimportant words from a girl. I said it unimportant because this girl talked about a boy who she never met before and I thought it was so innocent to think about that boy all the time. This innocent girl named Wika. I knew that she’s falling in love with that strange boy. She said his name is Doni. Recently, she told that she felt a bit doubt with Doni and her feelings to him. She thought that Doni was hiding something over her. I suggested her to be honest to herself and it would be good if she could over her relationship with Doni. However, she chose to keep her relationship with that boy and to act like she didn’t feel any doubt at all, while finding out who the real Doni was. As I look back, Wika’s ignorance on my suggestion to be honest to herself and to end up their relationship made me mad at her.

 As what other teenagers do when they reach a phase where they easily change their emotional because of a special person in their hearts, Wika does the same thing as well. Sometimes, she showed a happy feeling or expression and sometimes she showed the sad one. I realized that Doni already took every part in her heart. Everything she does would remind her to Doni, her dearest one. I was wondering how she can fall in love with a boy who she had never met before. Wika said that they only communicated through Short Message Service and they even had never had a call at once. From Wika’s explanation, they had become close since three months ago and they only needed two months to become a couple. Yeah, now Wika and Doni were  already in a relationship.

In this case, I just wanted the best for her and I just wanted to give the best advice to solve her problem. I told her to be assertive, not to be weak. I suggested her to leave Doni and think logically. I didn’t suggest her to do so with no strong reasons. I had a number of reasons why she should do what I told her to do. First, she had never had a relationship with any boy before. This is the first time for her to be in a relationship with a boy and of course she didn’t have any experience in romance. Second, they even had never seen each other’s eyes. Third, this strange boy said that he got seriously ill and said that his life was extremely short. I thought that was just his cruel strategy for grabbing Wika’s attention because he never explained what kind of illness that he was struggling for. I also thought it was just his reason for not being able to meet Wika. The strangest thing from him was he didn’t allow Wika to see him at Sanjiwani Hospital in Gianyar where he takes a medical care right now. Maybe he didn’t allow Wika to see him because of his ugly face or he is hiding something over Wika. Is this strange boy really exist or not? Only God knows the truth. The last reason was that, I didn’t want to see her to get hurt later on. That’s it!

When I told her about those reasons, I believed that she understood my worry over her. “Your worry as same as mine but I can’t do as what you suggested to me. If I do so, I will never know the truth behind these all. I will keep him mine while finding out who he really is”, said Wika. I kept silent for a while, then I tried to convince her again that she would be hurted by Doni. Unfortunately, she was still on her decision, ignoring my suggestion, so that I became angry to her. I was really sick of this situation.

For everyone who reads this writing, please don’t be blinded by love and don’t be weak. Girls can also be assertive and think logically about something, especially about LOVE.